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Friday, June 29th, 2007
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2:49 pm - OOC meme answers
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| Friday, June 22nd, 2007
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10:30 am - OOC meme
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The Mission Objectives:
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.
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| Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
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8:27 pm - Lost and found
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I am packing to move (again) and came across this, wedged down behind a bookshelf and buried under one of my copies of the Talmud Bavli M'vuar, M'turgam, U'mnukad, Tractate Shabbat, II, Volume 3 by Steinsalz and a copy of Hegel for an extra kick in the pants. One hell of a laugh... 4 years ago I was writing bitching about Daniel Soong's hormones and screwed up relationships... and here we are becoming roomies, in a flat neither of us could never afford otherwise. It's safety and security- we'll each have someone looking out for us- and the place is enormous, so we'll both have privacy. Hank is faintly bemused, but has opined he doesn't think losing me to Dan is a possibility.
Days flow into a rhythm now, even though work is never the same twice. Everything is edged in red-raw and ash-grey, flaring into heat and anger every time there is another attack. Logan is laced with anger and a thread of desperation- along with unholy rage at what Amaterasu did to him. I'm not too fond of her either, for in her askings and proddings, just as she graced him (or cursed him) with light, there is now a dark in me that wasn't there before. Not even the friendship of Daniel or the uncomplicated, easy rapport with Hank can dispel it. And I suppose that was all well and good; I was incomplete and unbalanced before, as was Logan. Even the Yin and the Yang have a spot of the other in them, for neither can truly exist without the other.
I wonder if I can help Daniel understand. This is his world now.
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| Friday, December 1st, 2006
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12:45 pm - I want to be the...That seduction meme result
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| Friday, May 26th, 2006
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5:11 pm
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| Friday, November 4th, 2005
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10:32 pm - Late spring, 77
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| Friday, July 15th, 2005
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1:47 pm
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It's tiny. Not enough room for my books and my art supplies. Still seems too big. I've painted the walls, bright colours. When really, all I see is grey. I like Elizabeth. As a person, not as a duty. It's almost a relief to visit her, get away from things, just draw and paint. So too going out to a pick-up quidditch match, bleed some energy and anger that way.
Work's not a respite. But I hunker down in the library anyway. Even though it physically hurts. There was a shift, palpable but there, in my lines when I took the ring off. Joss and Logan both give off such feral desires in their webbing. Light to dark. Life to death. Life is no virginal thing, it's messy, passionate, takes and grabs with both hands. Does he know how shocked I am to find myself, younger, greener, less skilled than he to find myself standing as his balance, Yin to his Yang, though the analogy breaks down almost immediately I must note as Yin is moonlight whereas Yang is sun though perhaps not such a breakdown, given the sun's ability to scorch plus his general modus operandi versus my moon pale way of doing things and the female is the one that cradles life. Life.
"I think you're going to delay him"
Which. Ascention, or Fall? Please let it be the Fall. He has work to do. I must keep him here until that's done. For a month, a year, 30? Who knows.
It hurts.
Back to reading. I do wonder if getting another Sigil would be worth it. Every damn Church supply shop carries them.
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| Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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2:24 pm
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It's very odd, to be alone in my head. It's been several days now. Strangely, it's not hollow, it's just. Odd.
More research on KW. What the hell is he. How did he gain all this knowledge- moreover, how did his mother, and who sent that poem, and...and.. More questions. So few answers. But on a related note, fuck you, Dermot Mulcahey, for your ghostly return. I don't have time for you.
I need to do a core dump with Swann. Try and get her mad research skills honed on the crumbling of the Gate and the Unmaking. KW has to tie into the unmaking.
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| Thursday, July 7th, 2005
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9:09 am
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Callie's notes are vast and enormous, neat as a pin, colour coded, and in several different languages-but largely Aramaic. A symbol is drawn, triangle in circle, along with copious notes on what happened with said sigil in the carnival showdown. Floorplan of house in New Orleans, transcriptions of conversations.
To do:
-convince healers to let me out earlier.
-failing that, get away from these two nutjobs and into a private room.
-while cooling heels, get secure channel, get rest of notes from office, update chart.
-pester public records about the record search just to tie up loose end, this seems pretty damn obvious. KR Worth and the Tales from the Halls of Valor. Krillian Worth. I want to know every detail of KW's godforsaken life, though. DP search? additional archives search? Wizengamut search, juvenile records search (get warrant to search sealed juvie files, I think we have ample cause here)
-Talk to Kauton when she's not drinking with Katherine, ascertain what she knows of the Halls of Valor, get list of children involved- possible additional targets for Worth beyond the ones notes in the 'prizes' at the fair?
-Look up on 'Shredl', name mentioned by AN in ward.
-Quietly follow up on order list from AN, see what MLE turns up- route request through Oceania to AN cc CM on it
in a smaller hand
I felt something shift, when Logan did that voodoo that he does so well.
The locket's dead. It winked out at about 3 am, I'd felt it weakening steadily for hours. It's been so long since I've been alone in my own head. I looked, there is no thread trailing off, away from me.
Ironic, really.
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| Friday, July 1st, 2005
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9:28 am - Logtastic!
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I'm sorry, you want what?
Katherine Aubrey goes to Mysteries to try to get her hands on some research Donelle Darkfell requested. Things don't precisely go smoothly when the person she asks is very familiar with Donelle's security protocols. With special snarky guest appearances by Logan! Rated PG for the mad obscene hate the girls are thinking really hard at one another.
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| Saturday, April 30th, 2005
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8:12 pm - Meeeeeeme
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| Friday, March 4th, 2005
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1:02 pm
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God my to do list is a mile long. Mail presents, owl Donelle to see if we can get together over hols, give up and get a damn license and just get married already, get books for the- ugh- additional classes I'm now in, read up on geomancy since I get to take a field trip with my new asshole boss, and I've a feeling I need to start working out more.
The new boss is terrifying. Utterly terrifying. Runes guy. Big honking runes guy. I think he's distressed I never even took runes and intends to make me suffer for that little oversight. I should have bloody well copped out of the overachiever track and been a starving artist. Thank god it's the holidays- alcohol aplenty.
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| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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1:30 pm - That's great it starts with an earthquake
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OOC.
In the 'never thought I'd see it' file...
+quid/points
House P W D L For Against Diff
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Ravenclaw 2 2 0 0 330 10 320
Hufflepuff 2 2 0 0 330 20 310
Slytherin 2 0 0 2 20 320 -300
Gryffindor 2 0 0 2 10 340 -330
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| Friday, August 27th, 2004
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8:46 am - The world, she is ending
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We won.
Oh my God. I think I'll stop in a church while we're in Germany and kneel and pray for longer than I have in a long, long time. Thank you God. I have finally tasted what winning a single damn game feels like. It was beautiful, and if this doesn't raise Vivian's confidence I don't know what will. I've never seen a student seeker find the snitch so fast!
We won.
Oh my god.
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| Friday, July 23rd, 2004
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8:37 am - Insanity
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Not even going to waste the time writing about Dan and that boy's hormones. Good god.
Something happened the other night that still has my head spinning. Came out of Solvinsky's session to find Jake from Gryffindor and Nikki from Slytherin standing there with cigarettes. How stupid do you have to be to be standing outside a freaking classroom with specifically prohibited contraband!. I docked them and impounded the stuff, Jake was a touch snarky so, joy of joys, more points, and then this Hufflepuff Aodhan just starts....going. And going. And going And right when he started, Solvinsky came out, and he just wouldn't stop. You know, fine, whatever, question my authority to dock points, I can patiently explain the school rules. But holy shit. When a Professor tells you to zip it, you do. And this kid just...kept...going. He insulted me (fine. Whatever. Entitled to his opinion), and then he insulted the prof! Over and over and over again! And didn't follow a direct order, 3 times, from Solvinsky, and called Solvinsky not a true Hufflepuff and just...
Gah. The drama.
Meanwhile, Jake's smiling like the cat who got the canary and making the best of it all.
Goddamnit.
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| Thursday, July 15th, 2004
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5:06 pm
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(OOCly, there's a router problem between me and HE. Fooey!)
I need to come up with a ball costume. Of course, I also need to ditch Cedwic in Hogsmeade long enough to buy his anniversary present. Hrmph. Right now, my game plan is to duck and stay low with regards to the Ball, and maybe no one will ask me to help.
My dayplanner is overstuffed already. I have to...
-Send a note to Charisma about set crew
-Set a meeting for set crew
-Talk to Charisma about quidditch camp for a newspaper article
-Shake articles and photos out of everyone, shepherd the next issue through printing
-Meet with all the actors to take quick height measurements so I don't design/build everything too stumpy
-Research for Jabari's birthday suuuurprise, coordinate with Donelle and Viv
-Quid practice and re-tryouts
-Pull articles for history discussion section
-Pull research for Defense, History
-Talk to Loxodrome, Concord
-Sleep
Gods. And I need to do a 'girls meeting' since we have so many female firsties, and you know, I bet neither I nor Viv want to deal with a girl in hysterics over her first period . Meeeeeh.
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| Friday, July 9th, 2004
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10:42 am - Sense and sensibility
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Well, Vivian and Cedwic have both talked some sense into me. I guess... I guess just getting piled on by multiple people in one day just got to me.
I'm worried about Jabari. Very, very worried. He's a lovely guy, and far more sensitive and caring than I had thought, and things with his ex are just not doing good things for him. I don't quite understand what's going on, but when he told me and started getting emotional, and I went to comfort him, he freaked out. He'll tell me in due time, I shan't push and ask. Look where that's gotten me in the past.
Meantime, I need to calm down lest I reach down Daniel's throat and rip out his spleen with my bare hands. Does the boy- and I do mean BOY- not learn? Does he not stop to think? Or is his brain completely ruled with hormones?
How much angst does it take to kill Callie? Let's not find out!
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| Monday, July 5th, 2004
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1:21 pm - Bone weary
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I am tired. Tired to my marrow, and it's only mid September. I am tired of caring and tired of being sweet and tired of smiling and tired of always being 'on'. I am tired of setting a good example, and tired of being patient and kind, and tired of giving. I am tired of saying the wrong thing, and being called evil when I'm trying to lighten things up, and tired of having people not open up to me because I'm head girl, because I'm not the right person, because I'm too good or too wry, too nice or too mean, too authoritarian or too politic. I am tired of trying to make things right and get smacked down for it.
I am a brittle shell, a mask of self-confidence, of wit and smarts. I want to hide. I want to dive into my bed and curl up and cry. I've never felt as alone as I do now, surrounded by hundreds and hundreds of people. I just want it over, I want it all over, I want the play done and quidditch done and the paper's last edition under my aegis ripped up and mulched into the beds, the NEWTs over with. And yet the school year's barely started, the firsties still confused and terrified, the true burdens of schoolwork just beginning.
If I weren't here, would any of my friends give a rat's ass? Who are my friends, anyway? Do the people I call friends just suffer me not-so-gladly and count the days till I'm out of their hair?
I feel my future slipping through my fingers. Mired in the bullshit of Hogwarts, growing ever closer to joining the ministry post grad, like a good head girl should, excelling in my career, just as I should. How bad would it be if I just up and took off for Ireland after graduation, me and Cedwic and a crateful of art supplies. Can I avoid feeling like crap if I just paint for the rest of my life?
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| Friday, July 2nd, 2004
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9:17 am - When it rains, it pours
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Head's gonna explode. So far so good, firsties all scared but okay (Cept Morganna, she exudes confidence and calm), Viv, Ced, and I divvying up leadership of review sessions. Gotta get first newspaper meeting set, have to get Donelle sketches for sets (Asst director and art/set director for school play. How did I let myself get roped into another activity?), helped Donelle with her broom, already cleared history thesis topic with Mullins, have to talk to new Datda prof and Concord.
I need a nap.
It's September. How can I be this busy already?
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| Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
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12:04 pm - Hah!
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